Hello Fall...

It was with some shock that I discovered that today was September 1st! (Oh I know...but I am seriously doing well to remember what day of the week it is, let alone the date!) Nine days till my birthday. Whoosh...there went summer. Did you hear it fly by?

As you all can imagine, this summer has been just a wee bit jumbled. Disconnected. If we had a rhythm, it probably resembled cacophony! This is hard for our large family, and our children. They thrive when they know what is coming next, and flounder when things are unexpected (Isaiah especially). This summer has been a trial for my family in that regard. My mama's heart has been puzzling it over with many prayers as we move in to the fall. Quite simply, things still aren't "normal" (even by our kooky definitions) due to my surgery. I cannot lift my children or carry them about. I have a hard time bending and moving (which is getting better daily) in all the functional ways that us mamas must move. I get tired easily. I can't manage and care for my household in the ways I am used to, and my children miss their mama's involvement in their life. I realize that this is a season. But I also know that my children really need some rhythm and 'sameness' to their days. Needless to say, my Father and I have been talking about it a lot.

I kept feeling like I just couldn't find the center from which to start. In an almost audible way, I heard God say: "I am the beat. Listen to my heart. Follow My ways, and the rhythm comes naturally." I have been focusing on my weaknesses, the things I couldn't do. But all my Lord asks of me is to walk with Him. To walk with the companions he has has chosen for me at this stage, to trust His heartbeat of love and care. I need to rest in gratitude, instead of fear. Loveliness, instead of shame at my weaknesses. In trust, instead of pride that I can do everything on my own.  This is the lesson I have been learning this last week. Isn't the quote from Hinds Feet so poignant?

It was with some delight as I read through my blogs this morning, to find this entry by Ann at Holy Experience, and a companion one by Tonia at Study in Brown. Ann's post, in particular, just seemed to go right to my heart, as if God had inspired her to write straight to me. It gave me such a peace. Such a gentle, loving reminder of what God had been teaching me. I will praise Him, because He directs my path. I will rejoice in the every day, because He has chosen it for me.

Comments

[Suzy]

"I will praise Him, because He directs my path. I will rejoice in the every day, because He has chosen it for me."
Such humbling and beautiful words ~
Praying for you all.
God Bless
Suzy

[Rebekah]

I'm so glad to read that this morning. Such a wonderful and beautiful thought to meditate on.