Life...

As you all can imagine, I've been using the visual mediums to work through my grief.  Beka posted tonight, and she said what I am feeling so much better than I could ever quantify. And yet, even as my heart aches, so it aches so much more for Beka...my thoughts are with her as she struggles to take the next steps in her journey. I've always enjoyed "Life Means So Much" by Chris Rice (first one in the player), but it has now taken on such a deeper meaning to me. A friend asked me what I wanted for my birthday (next Tuesday) and I couldn't comprehend it...I just said "Nothing. I am just thankful to be alive, and that's gift enough to me." I struggle to comprehend that I was so close to death. It definitely comes in waves: the smallest thing will suddenly catch me unawares, and I just have to stop and cry and pray. Please continue to keep Beka and Mark in your prayers!

Comments

[Samantha]

I'm glad to hear that you are finding ways to get through the grief. God is so amazing.

xoxo,
Samantha

[Rebecca]

oh yes, dear sister, life is indeed beautiful (as is your blog). Thank you for sharing your story with us. love, rebecca